last day of court

Its been a while again.. Yeah I know but I still have to come back here every now and again in order to read what I wrote and remind myself of the direction that I am trying to stay on.

Well, Court wound up not so much as I expected. Ill tell you my expectations first then I will tell you wut really happened. I went to court on tuesday the 2nd of febuary all steeled into believing that I would go in there and get myself in a position where there wouldnt be much if any real unishment for what I did. I have been talking to the home owner Mike for a while because although there was times where he and I didnt see eye to eye, We were still pretty much family. He is like a brother to me and anytime if he called and said … Look I have a problem and I need you here now , I would rush there and be there in any way that was needed.  Needless to say , he was in my corner and was willing to testify that I had rights to be in the house anytime I wanted. that wouldve taken care of the majority of the felonies and would give me a better chance.

then there was the rest of the charges that dealt with Kelly and her Friend Doug. They were nice enough to want to say that they couldnt really recall the statement that they gave the state trooper because they had both been drinking and Kelly had taken a muscle relaxer to help with the pain in her back.  At  the Most I expected to mess up slightly in examining the witneesses by not objecting to something or maybe not wording a basic question properly.

Now for what really happened…..

I arrived at court having already been in contact with Mike the home owner.. When I got into the recieving area of the courthouse, Waiting in line already was all three . I stood in line about 50 feet from them as Mike texted me and I texted him back about this Blonde haired woman that mustive been about 6’5″ that was standing next to him. After signing into to let the District Attorneys office know that I was there to proceed with the days agenda I went into the court room and sat patiently waiting to hear my name called. I knew that there would be no lawyer representing me because I had been turned down by the Public defenders office yet again , even when I pleaded and begged them. I knew that the Trooper would be showing up for this so that he could  do his part in testifying against me to show the state and the jury how horrible of a man I was.

I waited for about 10 minutes and there walked in the little B**** district attorney that would be trying my case and trying to prove without a shadow of a doubt that I was not to be trusted and I was a man on a mission that I had planned this out and had been searching for kelly in order to carry out this grievous and heinous act. She called My name to go speak to her so that she could give me the states offer.. I went up and waited because there was another attorney who wanted to speak to her as I got to her table. If your not represented then your the low man on the totum pole. I walked about 10 feet away and waited for her to finish. She called me back over and gave me the paperwork that pertained to the case  and had all of the states evidence in it that I would have to counter. Standard proceedure for the state of Pennsylvania .

I then went back to my seat to read the 50 so pages and see what I was Up against. THey even had my arrest record from 15 years ago and the bitch actually used a charge the NYPD used to show how one of their officers was injured when in actuallity the officer fell cuz he was a fat bastard and got a scrape on his abomen. They had to charge me with that so that the officer could have a few days off. I was NEEVER found guilty of the assault on an afficer charge but the D.A. would later use this to show the judge that I was a violent man and have always been. I believe the D.A. is just about as crooked as the rest of us if they can use those sort of tatics.

Anyhow.. I read the paperwork and there wasnt anything there that I didnt already see in writing. I was called back up and told to speak to a lawyer outside that would tell me what the D.A.’s office was going to offer me. I walked outside and got a shock… 12 months time served due to my stay at the mental health clinic and ( this is wut blew my mind) # years parole running concurrent to the 12 months that would already have been considered time served. I was pissed.

Three years parole of someone telling me that I have to be in my house at a certain time. Three years of someone hoving over me telling me how I had to live my life. Three years of pissing in a cup and them examining my urine. Three Years of reporting to someone and not even being able to leave the state without a signed and dated pass specifying where i was going to and how long I was going to be there. Immediately told the lawyer to go in there and tell the lady D.A. to go FUCK herself.. Im going to trial and Im going to shove this case right up her ass…

Then this is where logic and fear kicked in. I was then told that just for the terroristic threats charge.. Telling doug to “sit the fuck down before I killed him” could get me 5 Years alone if found guilty by a jury of my peers. I shit a brick at that point.. First thing that came to mind was christopher and what/how I would miss even more time with him, Behind bars, not being able to do anything for him.  (FYI christopher is severely disabled and god forbid he gets sick he could die) . I just started faoming at the mouth  in anger and at the same time my knees were trembling.

Lawyer comes back to me with only 2 minutes before the judge was going to call on me and ask me if I was going to take it to trial or take the plea bargin. The lawyer spouts out very nonchalantly, “ok she just offered you 12 months time served and 2 years probation. ” I was still crushed. Only two minutes to decide wut i was going to do and if I screwed up in trial… It could cost me soo much.

 I really didnt know wut to do.. i was so scared of losing that much time, 5 Years, I couldnt fathom what kind of person I would be if something happened while I was away..

So in the heat of the moment I took the plea… Ill get more into the happenings in the court room during sentencing.. But I just got to say this…. That night when I got home I was totally pissed at the world… Im better now.. Still a lil angry but I dont want to climb the highest tower around strap my pink poka dotted underwear on my head and just start randomly shoting anything that moves.. Lol  Btw I was just joking Id never ddo that.