Well, aint I just the procratinator these days… I think that I was hiding on the internet for all those years and now that Im out lassoing life n taking my part in making someones day, anyones day, a little brighter I cant seem to really want to sit down and just spend hours at a time just surfing. Who woulda thunk it just 5 months ago that I could go without getting online for a few days and it not meaning that my world had haulted… I guess Im finding that life is so more intresting and more rewarding then just trying to find the end of the internet. 
I know Ive been slacking in showing the decentcy to respond to the gracious comments out there and all I can do is apoligize. Im not apoligizing to those of you who read and decide not to even comment AKA “Lurkers”, I could give a rats tooshy. Im talking to those who have supported my sorry butt when I couldnt seem to see past my butt cheeks because I had my head so far wedged up my butt. You guys kept telling me that It’ll be better and the light at the end of the tunnel, and greener pastures are to come but if you havent already guessed, I can be a stubborn OX. Ok Ill say it again just in case the lurkers or the bots didnt catch that.. I was being a total donkey, mule, ox or whatever … Bottom line is that .. Pauses and waits for the crowd to get their camcorders ready to film this.. ( I dont say this much)..
“You were Sooooooooo Right”
So now christmas has passed and the world didnt stop turning. New years sucked and I didnt even care to see the ball drop or even go outside for the old tradition of ringing in the new year by banging on pots and pans, But it wasnt all that bad honestly. I didnt get drunk for new years. I didnt even go out for a knight on the town. I stayed home and just talked on the phone, watched a movie and had a decent time. Oh and get this, I actually spent new years day doing fun things… Like OMG I cant believe he just said that. ”Yes virginia there is such a thing as having a good time with friends and aquaintences on a day when you should be blah…”
OK now onto the next few topics. Ohhhh one of them is a movie that I went to go see.
” Its complicated” Jane is the mother of three grown kids, owns a thriving Santa Barbara bakery/restaurant and has – after a decade of divorce – an amicable relationship with her ex-husband, attorney Jake. But when Jane and Jake find themselves out of town for their son’s college graduation, things start to get complicated. An innocent meal together turns into the unimaginable – an affair. With Jake remarried to the much younger Agness, Jane is now, of all things, the other woman. Caught in the middle of their renewed romance is Adam, an architect hired to remodel Jane’s kitchen. Healing from a divorce of his own, Adam starts to fall for Jane, but soon realizes he’s become part of a love triangle. Should Jane and Jake move on with their lives, or is love truly lovelier the second time around? It’s–complicated. .. (sorry yahoo but I needed a description)
Anywho’s It was a great movie filled with laughs. If I went to go see it and I would consider it a chick flick because things dont go Kaboom, theres no ratttaattatt of machine guns nor is Arnold Schwarzenegger going to be saying “I’ll Be Back” but I enjoyed it. Alec baldwin seems to forgotten how to pretend he is acting but nothings ever perfect and its kind of the moral of it. Things end, Other things bloom, its not perfect in any shape or form but it is life with all of its twists.
If you have the time and you just want to enjoy yourself without having to worry about nudity, Blah Blah Blah, Just go see the movie. I promise that if the price of two ticketts, a large popcorn and a soda saddens you that the movie will at least get you laughing until you have to remember where you parked your car.
There are a few other significant things that have taken shape, transformed or have just totally blew the doors off of what my life has been but ill have to save them for another time. I am going to ask for your prayers and whatever help you can send my way for court on friday. Btw I take checks , visa , discover, mastercard, CASH, or even your first born if they know how to be a trial lawyer. Well just kidding on the firstborn thing , That could get into the whole labor law thing and employing minors.. ]
Im in good spirits and thanks to my friends I have to say that IM a rich man no matter how much I dont have to pay the lawyer with. Its a new year Its a new lease on life however the year starts out Its time to enjoy that which no man can take from you , the spirit to carry on , the will to live, Courage to love and friends that care.. Cheers to you guys for making a huge difference in my life when I was too blinded by my own inbility to see past the pain. I commend you for not just saying that I was stupid or an idiot ( I know you thought both but im trying to make a point so shhhhh) and just losing intrest . I cannot say enough how much it has really helped me to get to where I am right now and I thank you again..
May this New Year bring all of you fortune, fame, and peace.. My friends my travels have begun, The adventure continues and Know that I am ok. even the therapist today semed to agree, though he frowned at me for telling him that Im not taking my medication . Ive been sick with the flu and couldnt hold anything down. Yeah I know its like insane people not realizing they are insane. Ive just had a fundemental change in the way that I see myself and the path that I want to go along with a philosophy of Dont worry , be happy. Ill be back to report in and tell you of my adventures. Just know that I am ok and people who didnt want to see changes in me, Those who might have doubted it was possible and just those who still have their heads up their butts cannot argue that there have been changes.
I smiled, I laughed and I had a ball today. Ill do it again tomorrow and theres nothing you can do to stop me…lol Haa hhahahah- cough cough…. ok Ill work on my creepy loud laugh a bit after I get down having the flu.
great to be here guys … Love Ya and Ill check in in a few days.. I know I have been sucky in the responding to comments section but I swear Ill get to it. U took the time to comment. Im going to take the time to respond. Love to all and to all a good night…
Hey Sweetie! Glad to see a happy post, well happier than previous posts. So glad you finally took your head out of your butt, but you had to learn to do that for yourself. Even though it took you long enough, it had to be done by you on your time, your way, when you were ready. I’m proud of you and the progress you’ve made and even though the road is going to be heading uphill, don’t be afraid! We’re all here to stand behind you and push you up the hill if needed! The climb will make you a better person as long as you’re not too focused on what’s on the other side! (See my song fits me and you) I love you and will always be here! Many big hugs to you dearest!
Felt good to be able to post something that wasnt so grim or in the woods so to say… Huggs Cheryl… You know that you are a golden ray of sunshine dear…
So great to see you feeling better about yourself! I, too, am so very proud of you, my friend. You have come a long way on a rough road and though you still have a ways to go…I am sure you can see the light at the end of the tunnel =) And I am glad you know that we all love you and want you to succeed and be happy. Love you…hugs to you, Charlie
Tammy: I avent felt this good about myself in a while… Its been a long time coming and its been one hell of a ride but I can safely say that I found that part of me that I had been tring to ring forth and it feels good to be in my skin again.. All the love and huggs my dear…
I want to wish you a very happy 2010 (smile) and its good to read you are having fun again, laughs again SEE the adventure of tomorrow and believe all will get better, you are the only one that can make the adventure happen.
Hiep Hiep Hoeraaaaa!!!!!!!!!
Things can only get better now as long as you live for the now,look at tomorrow with a smile and dont look at yesterday to often.
Its soooooo good to see you enjoy life again Charlie and you know life IS here to enjoy,you live only ones as Charlie and its only you who can make the best of it.
Let us know ones in a while how things are going.
I sent you a big smile from across the ocean.
Take care Charlie and dont let anybody get you down again, you are in charge of you.
Just glad to see my bro is still alive and kicking! I am glad now that your eyes are opening up to bigger and better things. You are missed and hope nothing but the best for you bro!
I’m glad things are improving. There’s no greater witness than someone who’s come through the valley (or who is still in the valley) and can testify that we don’t have to walk alone. You’re not alone, Charlie. I’m glad you see that now.
(Not everyone realizes that when they’re in a dark place, it could just be their head up their own butt. Very insightful!). Cheers!
How was Friday, Charlie? Been sending lots of prayers your way, my friend =) love ya!
Hello lovely – so very glad to see you are getting to find ‘you’ again. We knew you were in there – some of us had been priviliged to see glimpses over the years. Let us know how court went please, Charlie. Sending prayers that all is well.
Love you to bits!!
xx
just stopping by to say I am thinking of you and hope you are doing well, hon. Let us know how you are doing…hugs and love