Lets see, I think I owe you folk out there an update as to what the happenings have been. I went to court, got totally screwed and now there are only two real options left for me to go. First being that the District Attorney gives me a plea bargin in which case the amount of jail time varies with the charges that Im plea bargining to or I go to trial and hope that on a whim I can get rid of all the charges through testamony on the stand. Neither of the outcomes is good see as how I now cant afford the attorney that I hired to have the case sent back to the lower courts. sighs…..
Then theres christmas .. Bahh humbug.. lol Ok so I spent my christmas alone in my room because I didnt have any money to go anywhere for the holiday.. I had a friend that was going to come up to get me but his car had troubles the day before and he had to cancel out on me. That left me sitting home with myself . It wasnt as bad as i had imagined it would be because I took one of the stronger sleep meds in order to be sleepy all christmas day and basically I slep th whole day away. It wasnt the ideal outcome for the day but it was so much better then thanksgiving went.
Im not all too sure what really changed in me at this point. Im still facing all of the same problems and Im still in a hell of a tight spot in all aspects of my life but I found something that Im holding onto that is helping me get through this tough time… My own Will.
Its amazing what a little bit of will can give someone but on top of that Ive been meeting new people and getting out more then before. Even when the court denied me the motion to recind the case back to the lower courts I still had an upbeat attitude about life. Well I did go home that night in a daze but I still handled it better then I would have just weeks before. Im doing my damndest to keep on this track by telling myself that this is all just temporary and that in time itll all even itself out to a point that everything doesnt look like mountains standing before me but rather just pebbles that I need to just deal with as best as possible.
I know that I have not been updating my blog much and that is because I have been out chasing life down rather then waiting for life to come to me. Instead now IM rabbing the bull by the horns as best I can and guiding it to where I want it to be. NO more of this pity me bullshit and getting tossed around like a rag doll every other day. I still cant wait for it to be all over so that I can start my new life but its not just a ride anymore, Its an aventure that I have some say in …
Well thats all for today that I have … I want to thank you all again for giving me the support that you have and for having the fortitude to continue to give me advice and a ear. Huggs to all you guys that comment , Its made a difference and I want you all to know that..
Hee Charlie
…….. its good to hear from you again, I figured you needed some time to get things in order, I know the system is a bitch to deal with and the only thing you can do is face it and do the best you can in handling what is thrown at you, try your best to stay out of it and hope you get a good soul to help you.
Well at least you got through Christmas day …..sleeping huh? (smile)well you meet new people and with new people you get another look at life, from a different angle and with new people new idea’s get born. Can you believe I just met somebody from Idaho hahahaha and here I am on the other side of the world, but she means a lot to me for she is in the same situation I am,Its good to read you see the adventure and see you have a say in what ever happens to you.
And Charlie it WILL be over one day and that is one thing you have to believe in.
Well its good to know you are doing okay and you have friends you can talk to and heee!!!! the new year is just around the corner and will look a lot better when it starts huh? hahahaha now THAT will be an adventure the year 2010 (smile) it sure will be my adventure and I hope it will be yours to:)
this last year I wished it would rain down on me a couple of times but every time I went outside (smile) it wouldn’t.
You be good and enjoy life okay?
hugs from this side of the world where its raining for real now and I DONT want to go outsite hahahaha
2010: Tis good to be back and in full control of my facilities…lol or at least I think I still am.. Im glad that things seem to be opening up a bit for the both of us. Im trying to be as good as I can. After all .. Indiana Jones never went looking for trouble but it always seemed to find him..lol Cheers hun and huggs…
So glad you are still doing ok, hon. Have been keeping you in my prayers. I am so glad you are feeling stronger and able to take on the world. big hugs and lots of love to you!
Tammy: Im alive Im kickin and Im just enjoying the smell of sweet fresh air that I somehow stumbled upon.. It feels good too.. Big Big huggs Tammy and Hope this new year rocks for you Girlfriend.. You deserve it. Huggs Huggs huggs….
Hello sweetheart. Just to let you know that I am thinking of you everyday and praying all will soon be totally sorted so you can look forward and begin to plan in your new life…. Never letting go of your hand lovely.
xxxxxx
Fae: Hun Itll never be totally sorted , You know that but I can say that the chips will fall as they may and that each day brings in its own new challenges and trials but no day will be the same as that dark one that past. Always thinking of you and always wanting to know how your doing.. Havent heard from you and its starting to worry me… Huggs and soo much luv .. Dont ever let go of my hand .. I might have to guide you through a few tough times again.. Smiles . A bucket a lance and a dog does jouster make but a comedian is more the likes of such a spectacle…
Keeping you in my prayers, Charlie. May there be many blessings in the coming year.
Fran: Ty for the prayers and They seem to be getting through to the one upstairs who pushes the paperwork through the red tape… Life can be difficult but it is those times are unbearable where your friends make themselves known.. Blessing and huggs Fran…
Hey, Charlie!! Hope this is the best year ever for you. Thinking about you, hon…hope you are doing well….hugs and love